Sleep

I feel like everyday I lose sleep at night I will sleep maybe one or two hours and then wake up and the next go back to sleep and sleep another one hour back up again. They say sleep is so important but don't you think if it was my body would be all like girl take your butt to bed and sleep for three days and three nights. How I wish I could. Instead I sit up all night looking at everyone else's sleep hearing the house so quiet because I know when they wake up it will be loud. I guess I cant sleep because this so called husband of mine wants to keep the volume of the TV so loud that the house shakes. If I could go back single was not sounding so bad at all. at least I could sleep when I want go anywhere I wanted to and talk to whoever I wanted just do me and not worry about anything else going on around me. Gosh why did I have to go and get married like an idiot jumping into a marriage after six months I mean who does that. Right here!!! that would be this idiot. Now I am smacking myself in the head like oh my world woman what did you go and do. I am not saying it is bad all I am saying is I don't think I am happy anymore. That spark went out the window along with confusion and the flowers I threw out last week because I left them sitting there for four weeks. GROSS!!!! Yep maybe I need a vacation a really really long one that just takes me away from the world turn my phone off and go missing like for a couple years. Will anyone miss me then I mean truly miss me. Right now I feel like a damn maid running after everyone picking up after everyone and they all are grown. Tell me who actually leaves dishes in the sink and waited for me to clean them. or who don't cook at all when I am sick but wait till I take medicine so I can take my sick butt to cook for them. Why have anyone if they don't contribute at all. One day I will snap into reality and live alone again. At least then I wont have no one yelling about money and what I do with it or yell just because it sounds good coming out there mouth. yes one day alone yes cant wait till that day. Until next time hopefully maybe I at least caught up on sleep and I will be less angry. Until next time my readers.

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